Damaged Bulbs in a Parlour

Finally life is only about choices. The quality of our life depends on it. And that applies first to what our reactions are, and then to what our actions are. Because much of what we do is in anticipation of or in response to what we think people will think. The subset to this is the overriding power of our ego - what it makes us feel, what it makes us look like in this world. The need to feel acknowledged, the distress when we are not.

 

The tragedy inherent in the situation is that we live an inauthentic life, lit for someone else’s gratification, engendered for someone who actually couldn’t care.

 

And slowly we sink in a morass where we lose sight of what we truly are. We start believing our own lies. In fact our lies become our crutches to walk through the world  - shiny and empty, praised outwardly but scorned on the sidelines, touchy to feedback, inured to truth.

 

The tragedy of what it entails is that we seek low lights to surround us,  so our dim brightness shines like a floodlight, and we consider ourselves as resplendent.

 

And we live in this well of penumbra, thinking we’ve conquered the world. Celebrating life, singularly unaware that we are dancing on a cemetery of our own dreams.

 

If you liked this poem, consider listening to these other poems on choices and how we make them:

• I Will Leave The Last Line For You to Fill
• Aaschi - a promise
• If I Commit Suicide

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Following is the music used in this episode -\

 

Music: Abschied (Romeos Erbe) by Sascha Ende
Free download: https://filmmusic.io/song/3148-abschied-romeos-erbe
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Music: BRIO 1 by Sascha Ende
Free download: https://filmmusic.io/song/232-brio-1
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