In the Darkness of Our Autobiographies

We are often our own worst enemies. One mistake, one misdemeanor, and we hang ourselves before the world does. We deflate ourselves, we berate ourselves, we compare and invariably find ourselves falling short. Why? How can many of us find nothing right in ourselves whereas there are people in the world who can find nothing wrong in themselves! And in this game of self-obsession, where people are either the best or the worst, we bring into each situation not a recognition of its zen but our own stunted self-perception.

 

Dynamics of action are then driven not situationally - what the time and happenstance demands - but what the person wants. It’s a difference which makes the dynamics of results uneven and unpredictable. And each one of us more prone to our own vulnerabilities, and the situation to collapse within the black holes of our personalities.

 

But that’s the truth of us and what we touch. We can only be a sum  of our heights and recesses, the obsessions of our successes and the forceful blackouts of our failures. And we wish to revisit the glory of the same path for every endeavor and invariably encounter the pitfalls of commonality.

 

Darknesses are then an accumulation of too many bright spots.

 

If you liked this poem, consider listening to these other poems which talk about self-discovery -  

• Midas Touches Himself
• Who Do You Choose to Become When Alone
• I Am a Residue of Life

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The details of the music used in this episode are as follows -

Betelgeuse by Sascha Ende®
Link: https://filmmusic.io/song/5780-betelgeuse
License: https://filmmusic.io/standard-license