Musings as I Step Into the Morning (Leaving a Lover Sleeping)

One thing which I celebrate with a fullness of heart, is the normalcy of a strong relationship, which allows for consent, dissent, conversation, dissatisfaction, honesty, fun. The pleasure of knowing one can be one’s own imperfect self, and still make a relationship stronger for it.

 

Life, as it were, throws enough seductions to test us to our weaknesses - of faith, of belief, of purpose (and I’m not even getting started on religion and politics!) - not to further have the ones who love us the most to sit in judgement on our munificence or transgressions.

 

And this is, of course, easier said than done. Because much before we demand non-judgement, we have to ensure we give it. I for one am very quick in ‘disliking-rejecting’, ‘liking-embracing’. It is my own private fiefdom of choice and I carry my opinion fiercely inside me, until I deem fit to change it.

 

And progressively as I age, I show my true feelings more transparently than before. I have fewer friends as a consequence, but the ones I have, are the rocks and rock stars of my life. Because we know this of each other - we are both more because of our quiddities and irritations. And we enjoy the frayed package of what we bring to each other.

 

Life is complicated enough not to allow love to be nitpicking.

 

If you liked this poem, consider listening to these other poems on leaving a lover  - 

• Letting Go ( because I'm alive)
• The Things We Become When We Leave
• I Will Leave The Last Line for You to Fill

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Your name by Sascha Ende
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Sunset Fields by Alexander Nakarada